Hello to my Soul Family,

I am pretty pensive today ( I love that word for some reason…LOL) I keep thinking about Forgiveness and Loving Unconditionally.

I have been thinking alot about my own journey on earth so far and why and how I have gotten to where I am in terms of being able to Love in an unconditional way. One of the things I realized is that I love myself so much. It wasn’t always that way, I first had to really learn to like me. In order to learn to like “Savonn” I had to get to know “Savonn” I did this by spending time alone and going to do things I thought was fun.

I started to have play dates with myself. I would always find myself in my car singing, or acting out in funny ways and laughing so hard till tears were in my eyes. I thought ok no one is around and Im cracking myself up….LOL I looked at myself in the rear view mirror and said to myself ” You know you are so crazy and funny, I Love You”
This is when I began to get to know who I was, my quirks, likes and dislikes. I began to really see who I was from a different perspective. I didn’t need to be in a crowd or around others to really discern what I truly wanted and what made me unique. It just took a few play dates with myself. In this process I started really falling in Love with myself. I was in Love with myself because of my sense of humor, my unique ability to see beauty in everything around me. One of the things I really Love about me is my open heart and willingness to Love even when others around me are afraid, and my ability to share with others and reach out and help when and where I can. It was almost like I was someone else watching “Savonn” just Live and Be in the world.

I began to have a strong sense of self and a deep awareness of all the good and not so good things about me and was able to make positive changes within myself. I was able to forgive myself and have compassion at the same time and no matter what I had done to myself or others I still loved “Savonn” unconditionally because I knew his story, where he had come from, and what was truly in his heart……and it wasn’t hate……it was Love and a desire to be Loved and Accepted. When I got to a place where I was so in Love with myself that nothing bothered me much anymore and it was all unconditional then I could hold this same space for others in the world. As I have said before everything always begins and ends with you, so if you truly Love and Accept yourself unconditionally then you can do the same for others and its so easy and it feels so good. You don’t feel the tension of judgement on your shoulders and in the sting of Fear in your heart……you only feel Love.

Today while I was at the gym on the treadmill…..( I always get clear visions and my guides come in crystal clear when Im on the treadmill, whats up with that? LOL) Ok…umm where was I? Oh Yeah…..so I was at the gym…..and I thought about being born multi racial, and gay, and living in the south bronx and my journey up until now. I thought you know what……..God did that for real! LOL I thought to myself how perfect for me……the universe set me up with this experience as a human where I would be ridiculed, made fun of, rejected, hated, herassed, and judged for simply being who I was created to be. What better way to really Learn about Unconditional Love, Acceptance, and Allowing through my own perfectly created stories. I know this sounds crazy, but in my heart I believe each time I was hurt, or something happened to me where someone abused me, was hateful towards me…..it made my heart stronger and has increased my ability to unconditionally love them.

I thought this was a clever way to learn to forgive, because I needed someone to forgive. What a clever way to show unconditional Love…..I needed someone to Love no matter who they were, and what they were showing to the world….. Im so grateful for my life and who I was created to be. I always say to people there is a gift in your own “Uniqueness” embrace it and share it with the world. Some people are like umm Savonn how can you Love someone who calls you derogatory (did I spell that right?) names and thinks your trash? I tell them because…..I was created to Love. I know in my own journey when I acted out, judged others and did not accept them it was because I was afraid and needed to feel safe. There was safety in my judging them, it made me feel strong because I (My Ego) made them wrong……and how they lived was wrong so I could be right…

So I understand the human struggle and this allows me to see others and the world through God’s Eye’s or through “Compassion”. I can love you because I know who you really are, I see past the mask to the light within you……and it shines just as bright as mine. You may not see it but this is the vision I hold in my mind as I cross your path. I am just hear to show you your own beauty and reflect this back to you as I live in my own Light.
I dont know where Im going with this but I just felt like writing this today, I have this insatiable desire to continue to Love and be in a state of unconditional Love for others.

There is a story of a young soul who wanted to come to earth, God said “What would you like to experience?” The young soul stated ” I’d like to experience Forgiveness God”, so God said “ok …cool….you need someone to Forgive.” There was someone else standing around who came over and said “Hey, you can Forgive Me!” The young soul said “Really, you can choose whatever you want….why would you do this for me?” The other soul said ” I am doing this because I love you, just remember that…..when we go down to earth….and I spite you, show you hate, abuse you….remember who I really am and why I am doing this.”

I am remembering who everyone really is and this is why I can hold such a huge heart space for others…….If I can do this, I know you can whoever is reading this. This is a huge pill to swallow, so how about we just try for today to Love yourself in an unconditonal way………get to know yourself…..spend time alone….having play dates with yourself…….you will open yourself up to a world of new discoveries within you and will begin to actually like the skin you are in……and then eventually you will Love the skin your in……..and thats how it start’s. Once you fall In Love with yourself…….Loving others in an Unconditional way is super easy…………all you have to do is remember what you went through and your own journey of truth. If you can’t, then shoot remember the story I told you in the last paragraph…..LOL It’s a powerful reminder that we are all on the same journey, there is no hierarchy, no right no wrong……it just is…… The journey of enlightenment.

All My Love
Savonn

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