Today feels so good and the energy around me is clear, I am grateful.

The universe has been showering me with so many blessings all over the place. I have new clients I am attracting to me that I am able to help; abundance and prosperity is always flowing and I am in a state of peace today. Woo Hoo!!!

I am always thinking, always in my head about so many things that go on outside of me that produces such a curiosity to know the details behind it. I have been thinking about what it means to “Hold Your Space” and stay in alignment with your spirit or source. I remember hearing Esther Hicks say in “The Secret” when you are having a difficult time and feeling a bit off to look at the situation or experience and see what it is that you are using as an excuse to not let yourself be who you really want to be. I thought to myself, wow that is a powerful statement. Hearing someone make a statement and then coming to know it for yourself is completely different. I started to think about my own experiences as someone who is sensitive to energies around me. I began to ask in fact what it was recently that had irritated me so much about others who I did not feel comfortable around. I thought about how they chose to live their lives, or the experiences they chose to create and why that bothered me so. I thought about my own personal relationships and the people in my life that have at times ruffled my feathers…..LOL

At first my “Ego” tried to use my own cleverness against me and began to make them wrong and I was right. My “Ego” really needed me to judge them or anyone else who is different from me or what I think or believe. It was almost as if I could see exactly what it is my “Ego” does to trick me into certain things or ways of thinking. I then took it a step further and thought ok then why do I feel like crap? My “Ego” said because they made you feel that way……and they are bad or wrong and you are right. You are more enlightened and conscious so in order to feel good I have to not be around them and separate myself from them and only be around others who are just like me.

I knew I was going somewhere with these thoughts so I just decided to hold up a full blown mirror and look directly at myself to see exactly what was going on. The majority of the time I am in a balanced state, and feeling very peaceful. There are those times when I may notice something, or someone may say something or I may even see something I do not like. In that moment I lose my space, or I am not in a peaceful place anymore and I am feeling a little crappy. I asked my higher guidance to come in and show me why I was losing my space to things around me that I did not like, or even in some cases judged. My guides began to really break things down for me and it has really opened my eyes. They began to talk to me about how at any given time I can choose to stand in my light and stand in who I know myself to be. I can stay in this place no matter what and if I move from this place then I have made the choice to do so. No one outside of me can make me do this but myself. My guides began saying to me that my “Ego” needs something to feed off of to keep me from the truth. My “Ego” needs fuel to stay alive so it thrives on judgement, fear, and separation.

They began to show me that when I am happy and in my bliss I am in alignment with Source. I in that moment am allowing myself to be who I truly am and nothing bothers me. Now, when in that same moment someone says something or does something I do not like, I can make a choice to allow myself to be who I know myself to be(LOVE) and stay in my bliss and my own power. I can do this because my own bliss, and joy and what was making me feel good all came from within; therefore nothing can ever take it away but me. The reason my ego needed me to feel this way and judge others and blame others for the discomfort I felt is because then I would be distracted from the truth and knowing that no one can ever create my joy or take it away and that I am source living as Savonn. No one can take me out of holding my own space but me. The Ego knows once I realize my own truth and power and live in this daily then I have no need for it anymore and it does not want to die silently. The ego wants to separate which is why EGO stands for “Edge God Out” I also realize why I felt so crappy, it was instant Karma. Each time I had a negative thought about what someone said, or was doing I felt the affects of it in my own space in that moment… Why? because we are all one and connected and each time I do something to someone or for someone I am doing it to myself. When I send loving thoughts out to others I feel good, when I send out anything less than love I feel like crap. LOL

So I just want to Love everyone so I can feel good all the time. I gave my guides a huge energetic kiss and thanked them for this awareness I now had. I went through my evening and noticed when I felt uncomfortable and I then said to myself, I do not need to use them as an excuse to not be who I really want to be. I choose to be Love so I am going to be Love. I let it go and felt amazing and no matter what they or anyone else did I was in my own bliss. The more I do this and contemplate this way of being the less my ego is involved and the more neutral I become. I Love It! I couldn’t wait to get home to share this with everyone. I don’t have to have anymore excuses to ever not allow myself to be who I want to be. If I am not being Love in any given moment of the day it is because I am choosing this and no one is to blame but me. So this means I am my own Rainbow and Captain of my own Mothership…….LOL

I am so grateful my guides came in to help out, my “Ego” was having a field day. LOL I realized that anything that brings separation, hierarchy, wrong and right is just the ego. I can now just go through my own day and stay in a state of grace and allowing knowing that we are each at every second creating our day through our own thoughts and emotions and no matter what I see or what is going on around me it is not my creation. I do not have to choose to allow it into my space or my experience. Today, when you get frustrated or irritated just go to your higher self ask your guides to help you see what it is that you are using as an excuse to not allow yourself to be who you really want to be or do…….and just release the thought and be who you want to be in that moment. Then enjoy the relief you get once you are in this place or alignment.

Today I am choosing to be in my power, in my own light and will not use anything outside of Me as an excuse to be who I really know and want myself to be.

I hope this blog blesses and brings new awareness to all of those who read it.

Namaste
Savonn

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